To Forgive


"Forgiving does not erase the bitter past. A healed memory is not a deleted memory. Instead, forgiving what we cannot forget creates a new way to remember. We change the memory of our past into a hope for our future." 

- Louis B. Smedes


Life is like two-sided of coins. You'll get only one, either front side or back side. Life is about chances. The chances are always 50%. Whether you take it or not. Whether you leave it or not. Whether you chase it or not. Whether you agree or not. Whether you forgive or not..

Every chance has its own pros and cons. You get some, you lose some. You can not have it all because you have only 50% out of it. You decide whether you want to forgive, or to live with your pain. Whether you keep the memories, or you bury them deep down inside your soul. Whether you make peace with yourself, or you avenge your agony. Whatever you choose, it is all right. You have the right to choose. Even you have the right not to choose.

It is already 2014 and I still don't know what to choose. I want to forgive but it has been hurting much. I want to make peace with myself but my heart has been in pain for keeping long the memories. Once I feel betrayed by someone, it is impossible for me to trust the same person again. Maybe it is possible if I have time staying away for so long from the one who betrayed me. Because I need time to take out the pain and heal the wound. Time for my brain to not judge that new people will be the same like before, can not be trusted. And time for my heart to keep believing that there are still people out there who can be trusted.

Unknown said, "forgive others, not because they deserve forgiveness, but because you deserve peace." The word 'peace' is the key here. Guess, it is time for me to forgive because I, myself, deserve peace. To forgive in hoping that they would change. I think I just have to forgive...



pic taken from here

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Dance Floor Soulmate

Image
I started dancing when I was a kid. Thanks to my mom who put me in Traditional Dance Class in the neighborhood without my permission. I performed several times at that time. Primary, Middle, and High School years I passed without knowing the latest infos about dancing. I threw my self up in Marching Band Community and Theater Club, instead. Quite enjoying those old good times though I didn't have very passionate heart in time of doing. I was acquainted with Ballroom Dancing when I was Freshman. A friend of mine introduced me to it. And next time I knew, I felt in love with it. Last year in uni, I opened up myself to another possibility of dancing genre. Later I know, I found myself drowning in (what we call) Jazz Ballet slash Street Jazz. Most of people define Street Jazz with a various dances characterized by the use of improvisation and influenced by rhythms and ballet techniques which is developed over time. True that improvisations and basic ballet techniques are involv...
Read more

Comic 8 (2014)

Image
Since watching its first trailer on youtube at the end of last year, I couldn't wait to watch the full movie. Waiting for it to be aired nationally was killing me. Seriously. Yet, now it's all paid off. I must say Comic 8 was by far the best Indonesian Comedy movie I've ever watched. The punch line were hilariously funny. The casts were fit to their act. Even though I didn't really know that comic could act that good. Surprisingly, the plot was kind of mind-blowing for me. I guessed it wrong. But that's okay because it turned out good eventually. I know for sure that this movie was seriously made. The set places really portrayed the story. The props looked real (I mean the guns). The way the casts shoot them fascinated me. I mean they worked really hard to make this happened. Two thumbs up for the production team and casts! :) So, just spare your time today. Go to the nearest cinema. Have a fun day watching Comic 8 before it's too late. pic ...
Read more

Happiest Wedding in The Island of God, My Dance Guru

Image
"Remember the love you feel today. Look back on it daily and measure how much it has grown.." You were living your wedding dream. In your special day. You have stars in your eyes. A gleam of eyes. Your laugh was genuine. A happy laugh it was. I was really glad to be a part of your special day, Miss Riri. May the years to come bring loads of  joy and fill your lives with unbounded love! Photos from here
Read more